each and every day

for a long time, i’ve only thought of this space as a place to share my artwork, creative process, and all art related projects. yes, i did veer off course here and there, but mostly i tried to stick to that theme, but, as my creativity in the studio ebbs and flows, so does my posting here. as in, if i’m not feeling super creative and productive in the studio, the less i share here because i feel that i don’t have anything of interest to “say” OR i don’t feel that i have the “right” thing to share.

but, the other day i had a “lightbulb” moment, a long overdue flash of realization about this space. 

i finally began noticing an important pattern of my every day life, one that came so naturally to me it was easy to overlook and take for granted. it’s simple really-  if i’m not creating in the studio,  i’m creating something somewhere else.  being creative is an integral part of my every day, it’s just a natural part of my routine that i never let go.  yes, a big part of that routine USED to be quite centered around my art and studio, but as things change, (as they always do when a baby enters your world), my creative ventures have spread themselves out, so to speak. 

within this pattern, i observed -
if i’m in the studio less, i’m in the kitchen more, scouring cookbooks and trying out new recipes, obsessively, like it’s my job! and, if it’s a day that ada and i are together, WE are creative together - building towers, constructing tents, drawing on the chalkboard, painting pictures and taking adventurous excurstions outside. within those days i am noticing, savoring, picture taking, and capturing sweet moments in my sketchbook.

another other part of the pattern? i realized that no matter what day it is, when i let go of what’s SUPPOSED to happen within the framework of my day and just try to let whatever IS happening, happen, that’s when the i’m happiest and most inspired.  

i will say this LETTING GO has been best / hardest lesson i’ve learned in motherhood, but lately it’s the more BEST than hardest. 

so, it was this recent "pattern watching” that lead to my long overdue lightbulb moment about this space ~  
i’m going to start posting about my creative adventures from each and every day, hence the new header!, whether that means i’m going to share what i’m cooking in the kitchen, what ada and i are up to, or what i’m painting in the studio, it’ll be here. it feels right. it feels good. it feels like a perfect fit for ME and where i am today. 

i guess it’s taken me so long to come to this conclusion because i truly thought i needed to hold onto what i originally made this space for.

i was holding onto what i thought it was SUPPOSED to be.  time to let go. 

silly me.

i hope you’ll come along and enjoy the ride...  each and every day starts today.
xo *s